I have never had an orgasm from anyone other than myself. Seriously. The only time I ever nutted in the entire 28 years I've been on this earth was on my own accord. Sad. So sad. I've been with four men in my life and not one ever managed to make my eyes roll in the back of my head. Oh, it felt good having a dick inside my pussy, but nothing earth shattering, no eruptions of cum oozing down my thigh. I'm beginning to think I'll never experience such pleasure. I don't know what to do about this...
...a good flick. Of course I don't own one, I'd get bored with the same old images across the screen. That's why I scroll the 'net for whatever I'm in the mood for. On the top of my list of favorites y'all know is a good dyke scene with pussy licking and strap-ons. A very close second is a thick booty riding a nice sized cock til nut is oozing out of her.
I often fantasize what it would be like to not only be fucked like this but to be taped in the process. I can't even get my man to have sex with the lights on let alone some "lights camera action" type loving. My sex life, my relationship period, is so boring and unfulfilled. Wish I knew what to do.... Until then I always have my flicks....
...than a kiss sometimes. Not just any kiss, the kind that you feel throughout your entire body. When you get a true kiss it's more than just an action. It's a compilation of emotions expelled through one's lips. A real kiss sends impulses through your mouth, down your back and out through all the areas of the body that are most sensitive and then lingers on your mind for an eternity. A true kiss exchanged between two individuals with a shared lust for one another can be more intense than an orgasm...
I'm in a leadership position at a Fortune 500 company. There aren't very many African Americans in my position and I am by far the youngest person in my office. I've always been conservative but I've really taken my professionalism seriously ever since I was promoted about a year ago. I have a male friend who "fits the bill," he is very pleasant, educated and successful in his field. My family and friends adore him, they think we make a "cute couple." He is very handsome and has a lean "runners body," from what I can tell. I should really like him...but I don't. Why you ask? Because I'm so bored with him. I realized this week that we see sex/intimacy in a VERY different light. We've never had sex, only kissed a few times. Of course I would NEVER make any moves initially, but I've subtly given him a few hints. He has never responded in the way that I've hoped. Unfortunately I've picked up on a few cues that let me know he is far from "freaky." I want to be able to pull his dick out of his pants and put it in my mouth when we are driving around town just for the hell of it. I want to spontaneously fuck him in the coat closet during a fundraising benefit we've attended. I want him to bend me over my desk and ram inside me hard til I nut all over my expense reports. I want to be able to communicate my desires to him but I don't know how. So I'll have to keep sharing my thought with you guys. Thanks for "listening..."
One of the disadvantages to being a "closet freak" is that I'm horny all the time. There's only so much a lady a can do with her fingers before it gets monotonous, you know? So over the years I've enlisted the help of a few of my favorite things...
The first vibrator I ever purchased. It's my tried and true, not the greatest but definitely gets the job done quickly.
My go-to when I have a long drawn out fantasy to play out in my minds eye. I tease myself with this one and build up to good ass orgasm.
Something I have never used...but I want to soooooo badly.
My absolute favorite. It's how I start my day, EVERY day. I adjust it to the highest pressure setting and aim it directly at my clit...instant heaven on earth.
Later on that night I lay in my hotel room thinking about my afternoon with "Jade." I was still so embarrassed, but the thoughts of how good I felt in that chair resurfaced in my mind and that shame turned into lust. I started to replay in my head her movements and the way she touched me with firm yet gentle pressure. I started to run my own hands all along my body. I closed my eyes and practically relived those moments that occurs hours before. I could almost feel her and smell her sweet scent, it was almost like she was right there with me. Some strange sensation told me to open my eyes, what I saw almost made me cream..."Jade" was standing at the foot of my bed, naked!!!! She was soooo beautiful with her long black hair and petite frame. Again, she didn't speak as she climbed into bed slowly rubbing her body against mine along the way. Oooh her skin was so smooth and silky. She made her way to my face, looked me in my eyes and before I knew it her tongue was in my mouth and her hand was on my face. Her kiss was gentle yet firm, just like her touch. She slowly kissed her way down, hitting my neck and shoulders with her kisses along the way. She stopped at my breasts and cupped them in her hands and engulfed my nipples with her mouth one at a time. I felt a surge in my pussy every time she swirled her tongue around my nipples. She started to kiss her way down further. I thought she was headed to my sopping wet pussy but she stopped at my belly button and injected her tongue in and out, it felt so good. I kept thinking "I can only image how good she'll feel doing that to my pussy." She continued her way down and positioned her face so close to my pussy I could feel her breath on my clit! She looked up at me with a smile, and leaned in to kiss my other set of lips....and then I woke up....
So far this business trip is uneventful. Of course I knew it would be, I'd never truly act out my fantasies in the real world, just here with you guys. I am content with who I am. I'm proud of the fact that people see me as the "pretty, professional, good girl." But all this goodness does have it's drawbacks...I am horny as hell! I just received a pedicure in hotel's beauty salon and while I was there I had a series of thoughts I just had to share with you guys...
The sign in the window read "Full Service Salon." I didn't need anything in particular done "beauty" wise but I wanted to be touched by someone other than myself in the worst way so I decided to spring for a pedicure. The pedicurist was a petite, young, Asian woman. She didn't speak as she showed me to my chair. As I sat, she bent down to help me roll my slacks up and take off my nylon knee highs and heels. As she was down there, the thought of how close her face was to my pussy flashed in my mind and I instantly felt it twitch. She turned on the massaging chair and began the whirlpool foot tub. I sat there for a few minutes and just enjoyed the lingering thoughts of Jade (the name I made up for this sexy little woman)as she fulfilled her pedicure duties. It all felt so good: the warm water, the vibrations of the massage chair and the small but firm hands on my feet and legs, I let out a soft moan...uuuummm...and she stopped!! This lack of physical contact instantly pulled me out of my trance. I opened my eyes and saw "Jade" staring back at me. "Are you cold?" she asked with a thick accent. I had trouble understanding her until I saw her eyes move down to my nipples, which were noticeably erect at the moment. I didn't answer, I was too embarrassed! All she did was smile and continue with her work. At this point I was mortified, I couldn't enjoy anything else after that. I looked at my wristwatch and said "oh my gosh, look at the time, I'm sorry but I need to leave now or I will be late for my meeting." She continued to smile but again didn't speak. She helped me with my belongings, I paid her and left. I rushed out of there with a sigh of relief, so glad I would never have to see her again. Little did I know, though, I would be seeing "Jade" again...
I have to go guys but I'll finish my fantasy for you soon. Until then learn some foot massaging techniques from a few Playboy Bunnies to share with the one you are lusting after...
I'm headed out of town for a business meeting tomorrow. I'm riding down with one of my coworkers who is absolutely adorable. He's a white man and I've never been with a man outside my race before, hell I haven't even been with many men of ANY race for that matter. Anyway, we'll be staying at the same hotel. What if our rooms are next to each other with that little connecting door in between...What if I left my side opened and slid a note under his door that read "Enter At Your Own Risk"...What if I was dressed in only a lacy g-string...What if, when he entered the room, he saw me on the bed "face down, ass up"...What if he took his dick out his pants in one quick motion...What if he stood behind me, slid my panties to the side and entered me...ever...so...slowly....
And so am I. Of course I won't be posting any pics of myself on here since I wish to remain anonymous, but I just wanted you all to know. Anyway, I've never told anyone this before but the female form is so sexy to me. I'm not a lesbian (although lesbians are HOT) because I'm very much attracted to men as well, but we'll get to that later. Anyway, back to sexy ass broads. Alot of chicks look good to me but I find I'm partial to women who are made up like myself: perky titties with super sensitive nipples that get hard at the even the slightest touch; a big round ass with thick thighs; a small waist; pretty feet; and an innocent, sweet and beautiful face. Looking at someone like Ajia Nicole...
Ooohhhh she makes me want to slowly slide my fingers in and out of my wet, tight, throbbing...oh, you know...
I could answer that question alot of ways because I am alot of things. I am a young, professional, intelligent women. I am single, never married and have no children. I grew up in a loving home with parents who were strict, but they gave me what I wanted most of the time because I was a good girl, never causing them any trouble. I'm friendly and sociable. I've had a handful of long term relationships. Never had the pleasure of experiencing anything casual. I'm the "wifey" type, one a young man could bring home to his parents. But there's a side to me that not many people know. A side I keep hidden from the rest of the world. This side is longing to expose herself and that could get me into trouble. That could shatter my "good girl" persona. So to keep her at bay I have decided to start this blog. I need an outlet to discuss all these feelings I've been able to keep in the dark all this time. Follow me into the world of the Classy Jezebel.
I feel like there are two sides of me. One side is classy and conservative, that's the side everyone sees. But there's also a hidden side of sexual fantasies and dreams I can't tell the real world about. That's why I'm here. Join me into a world where anything goes...
